I hate myself.

I hate myself. Well, okay, i've been hating myself since forever, but this time i really, really hate myself.

Three big projects. Deadline? Tomorrow. Progress? Nada.

Another huge project. Deadline? A week ago. Progress? 10%.

Seriously JC, what's happening? You've never gone so low like this before! What will you say to them?! Can you even return the downpayment they've all paid?

Yeah, I have a reason to really, really hate myself now. But not because i'm lazy (probably the laziest person in the world); but because i let my emotions affect all these. No, i don't blame that girl, seriously. I blame myself for getting too emotional to the point that i don't want to do anything anymore.

And yes, it's still her. "N". That other girl who i thought i was falling for? It was a mistake. It's still "N".

*sigh.

I hate myself. Well, okay, i've been hating myself since forever, but this time i really, really hate myself.