BORED

A LOT of people affectionately calls me "Master"... or "Mentor"... or "Sensei"... because according to them, they look up to me as a role model.
Here's a tip: DON'T.
No,seriously. This unintentional facade of mine is definitely misleading. I'm a slacker. I'm lazy as hell. I was raised to not worry about the troubles of the world; to always rely on someone to do the hard work for me. I'm thankful, in a way; but now that i'm getting old, i tell myself... "something's missing."
I see old friends, classmates.. working their asses off and eventually becoming very well-heeled. Never, not once, did i envy them; and it troubles me. No, we're not as rich, but we're good. I work not to earn and save money but to have something to aimlessly spend. No job? No problem. I have my parents to back me up.
BUT THIS IS WRONG. I feel like a rounin - a samurai without a master. I'm 31 years old; but i still have no life goals - NO DREAMS. It's like i'm a living, breathing simulation of myself, controlled by myself -- bored, directionless, doing stuff just because. Having a wife (now ex-wife) didn't cut it; worse, having my son (who's just like a little brother) with me doesn't push me to move forward at all. To think that my son is like the whole world to me... it is very disturbing that it doesn't motivate me. Not one bit.
So yeah. Wake up, JC! Time is like a river, my life is like a boat; and i don't have a paddle. If my motivation is out there -- whether it's a "something" or a "someone"(preferably) ... please, show yourself. Make your presence felt. Let's ride my boat together; and i will give you my undying pledge that no matter how strong the currents are, i will never jump off.

Progress 4!

Progress 4!

Just a few more adjustments (specifically in the battle commands at the left) and it'll be the final battle layout.

Progress 3!

Drastically changed the battle's point of view. If only she's still "with me", then she could've expressed her opinion regarding the matter.

But anyways, at least we're friends in facebook again. Hah, as if that's news. :(

NeYo!

..welcome to the family, "NeYo"! (Hyundai Eon GL)
.. AJ named it NeYo Carrison, "in honor of Nestor and Yolly" -- my parents. they are the ones who bought the car for us as an early Christmas gift, after all. "Carrison", well, according to AJ, it's because it's a car. squint emoticon-_-
..after half a day of practicing, i got the hang of driving a manual transmission car (our other car, "Dudu", is an automatic). as the ultimate test i drove NeYo to Puregold to buy some groceries (it's a half an hour drive). overall, my manual driving skills is still a bit wobbly (mother and AJ were trembling with fear while i was driving); but it's a start. :)
..thank you very much, le parents! smile emoticon

re: ligion

..i used to mock religion. i used to be this pompous, arrogant, and insecure prick who posts hateful messages about religion and their devotees.
..but seeing people, oftentimes close friends... being too dedicated, .. too devoted to their god -- finding comfort and strength by worshiping and loving a higher power... and being able to share that same comfort, strength and love with everyone around them,... it's... quite fascinating.
..and that, my friends, is the thing i find very respectable. so guys, keep praying, keep believing. even though i don't believe in what you believe in, i promise to keep mum and not make fun of you and your religion for as long as i live.

This is the last one! I swear!

Last one for today; at least. :D ..I'll work on my lesson plan next, i promise!

Made good progress on hair transparency; and added bump maps as well. Oh, and added those cute little flowers on her head, too! ^_^

Two characters done, four more to go. Note to self: next time, don't base off your characters on you AND your ex-girlfriends. That way you won't need to create too many characters.

Progress 2!

Not much noticeable change since last progress (visually); but yeah, a LOT has changed. :D

Hmm i should put up a dev blog.