Five years

Five years..

..Down the drain.

My curse lives on, apparently.

This sucks.

:'(

Less Hideous.

..sometimes i look hideous. other times i look.. less hideous.
..but most of the time? i don't even look like myself. -_-
..i mean, look at that. is that even me? it's as if my head has a built-in "random face generator". :P
..either that, or, i have various spirits possessing me at certain moments within the day--hence the "facial randomness". :))

Bittersweet.

..the thing is, you can't really stop yourself from caring for someone you love. it's not a choice -- you either care for someone or you don't. 
..it's a bittersweet moment when you care deeply even if stresses you. when you care deeply even if it hurts.
..i have not felt this for a long, long time now. i can't say i missed it; but at least now i know that i'm still human.

side note: ..now my recent posts have two views instead of one. getting a bit paranoid here. what if you already know and you're just not telling me? :/

..tsk. here it goes.

..i'm falling for you. seriously. i hate it. i really really hate it!

..and then you're telling me now that you've broken up with him?! seriously what the heck?!

..ugh, my thoughts are all over the place.can't talk about this now. -_-

..Scared.

Will you be reading this? I mean, I THINK i gave you access here once.. but i'm not sure..

Uhm, it's scary; that recently, my mood is determined by how you treat me.. or sometimes determined by what your mood is.

It's scary that my world is starting to revolve around you when i'm supposed to be out there saving the world; or, taking care of my family.

It's scary, because I can't stop thinking about you.

The scariest part of all? Is that i'm FORBIDDEN to feel this way; specifically towards YOU.

Sleep it off, JC. Sleep it off.

...But i'm scared to sleep, because i might dream of you yet again. :'(

Or older?

..turning 32 twenty days from now. do i look my age?