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I have this crush. We talk every once in a while.

But just now, she was asking for some Photoshop tutorials. One on one sessions.

I'm willing, of course, even if it's free. :D

Trust me when i say that i didn't plan to give off a creepy vibe when i told her that we could do the tutorial sessions here in my house...

...But, she didn't even hesitate about saying "YES".

..tsk tsk. Chill, JC. Chiiiill.

Just a few more days, bald guy.

I woke up early to finish some tasks.

After going to the john, i saw my father, already awake as well.

I initiated some chit-chat; and saw that his eyes were teary.

.. :(

It's only just a few more days before he leaves for Italy again. Can't blame him for crying. For the record, i've never seen him cry.

Until now.

The Ronin

..it all happened so fast.
..i saw a facebook post from a former boss. he was looking for a potential instructor for game development subjects in his school. curious, i asked him about it; and just for the heck of it, i volunteered to apply. because YOLO.
..the head of the IT department of his school called me after just half an hour, and he wanted me to come by the school immediately.
..so the next day, i came. there were two applicants before me, already answering the standard questionnaire. i, on the other hand, scolded myself for not bringing a pen in an interview (doh!) so i had to borrow one from the HR herself. the questionnaire was composed of standard stuff -- info sheet, essay type questions, a personality exam. i got INFP, like always.. hah, i remembered her.

..strangely, even though i was the one who arrived last, i was the one to finish first.

..the HR then instructed me and the other applicants to wait. then, one by one, she called us and asked us to go to specific rooms for a teaching demo. i was a natural, of course (haha). so much for being an introvert. i nailed the teaching demo; and the panel of instructors were impressed (i think).

..i returned to the waiting room, and the other two applicants were already there. we were all done with our demos; and then, the HR showed up and called me first, yet again. the other applicants looked puzzled, but i ignored them and followed the HR.

..apparently, i was about to sign the contract.

..the HR told me that my presentation was approved by the panel of instructors, and i'm now officially hired. she showed me the contract; but then hesitated and asked if, aside from wednesdays, will i be available on saturdays too, for "specialists" class (professionals who just want to learn developing games because why not). thanks to me being impulsive i said "yes", so she had to edit the contract first and now my salary/rate per day got doubled in a snap.

..finally, i returned to the IT department head so that he could orient me. after the orientation, he introduced me to the dean. we shook hands, and he said, "FINALLY! A game development instructor!". :)

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..it's been one Wednesday and one Saturday of me teaching already; and so far, so good.

..oh, and i posted about this in facebook; and it garnered almost a hundred likes! that's a new record. they were congratulating me. they got inspired by me. they were happy for me.

..but for me? i feel that this victory is still... empty.

..why? probably because i'm like a ronin -- a samurai without a master. yes, hooray i have a new job; but, i did it just for the heck of it. i never needed this in the first place -- i have a lot of freelance jobs to finish. it's just that... i still have no purpose of doing all these. why not give job opportunities to those who need them -- like my ex-wife, for example. or other people who struggle to find jobs and yet can't seem to get lucky. they needed these opportunities more; don't cheer for me, don't congratulate me. -_-

.. just last night, a representative from the ANC (ABS CBN News Channel) called me and asked me for a televised interview re: pinoy-made apps; because apparently, the school where i work referred them to me and told them that i was an "app expert".

..i rejected it.

..because, hey, like i said, i don't deserve all these.

..someday, perhaps, when i have a reason to be what i am today. that day when i have someone to dedicate all these to; then okay.

..but for now, i'm just a ronin. minding my own business.

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PS. ..happy to say that i'm almost over her; but that's for another post. :)

The Vow

I find it sweet that, just now, my bestfriend (edit: she prefers "dear friend"), Candy, is reciting her wedding vows for her soon-to-be-hubby, to me. I mean, i never took it seriously (for my benefit) that Candy and I are this close. I mean, this is CANDY. she's a guy hater, and i see her as someone who wouldn't be friends with people not on "her level." Candy is quite possibly the prettiest close friend i ever have. i mean, she looks like a celebrity. no,seriously. people look at us (rather, at her) whenever we hang out together.

But anyway, yeah, right now, Candy is revealing who she really is (all positive,of course), through her wedding vow. And i'm the very first, proud individual who got the chance to read and know about it; aside from herself, and soon, her hubby-to-be.

I'm happy for you Candy, and yeah, i'm even happier for Chino. All in all, you deserve one another; and looking forward to seeing you at the wedding (by December)

(yeah, i'm a bit jealous too. but hey.)

Woops, I forgot.

Woke up early.
Grabbed my phone to browse through facebook.
Saw an article about a new RPG Maker called "RPG Maker MV".
Wide eyed, completely awake.
Wanted to inform her about it.
Wanted to tell her that finally, a new engine to realize our dreams again.
Hesitated, and sighed.

"Woops, i forgot, she's gone."

Held back tears.
Went back to sleep.

AS, anyone?

..so yesterday, AJ was evaluated by a Child Psychologist. "Tita Doctor", as she wanted to be called, commended AJ's intelligence; comparing his intellect to that of a high school student or even greater (considering that AJ is only 8 years old). moreover, she was speechless about AJ's ability to read and speak english like how a real American would have; and even requested that they instead converse in tagalog because the Doctor couldn't keep up. overall, Tita Doc was greatly fascinated and impressed.
..but, amidst all these, AJ was diagnosed with Asperger Syndrome. It's similar to that of High Functioning Autism; but far more improved. people with AS have some weird/eccentric behaviours and delays in physical development (delay in learning how to walk,etc). they have difficulty with social skills (lack of eye contact, missing social cues, having a hard time maintaining a relationship,etc) and consistent frustration about the smallest of details (changes in schedule, dislikes being corrected,etc). BUT, along with these disadvantages, they are highly intelligent and infinitely talented as compared to the majority. in fact, they will live a full, normal life without needing special attention /care as they grow up.
..and it's been proven. how would i know? well, there's this certain someone who was diagnosed with the same condition. for him, everything that was happening to AJ was like Déjà vu.
..surprise, surprise! my name is JC, 31 years old, and so far i'm living a normal life ( ... i think). :)