Bittersweet.

..the thing is, you can't really stop yourself from caring for someone you love. it's not a choice -- you either care for someone or you don't. 
..it's a bittersweet moment when you care deeply even if stresses you. when you care deeply even if it hurts.
..i have not felt this for a long, long time now. i can't say i missed it; but at least now i know that i'm still human.

side note: ..now my recent posts have two views instead of one. getting a bit paranoid here. what if you already know and you're just not telling me? :/